We Get Email...
Oh boy, do we get email! I've posted these here so you can see the
types of things people write. A "bulletin board" approach takes
too long editing out the profanity & wastes of space. This is unfortunate,
because I'd love to have one, but I hardly can keep up as it is. I think,
though, that you'll see my selections of letters is balanced & fair.
The following are genuine, unedited reader letters
(well, a few obvious typos have been touched up), though all names &
identifying specifics have been removed so as to protect privacy. And I
added the hyperlinks to make things easier to cross-reference.
[As you can see, some people are genuinely touched.]
Please Ahyh, go to the
press, the Vatican, anything. There are so many
who haven't heard your message, which I feel should be ADDED to the
Bible. Have you ever thought this? Have you ever
realized what you have written down? Its the Digital dead sea scroll
pretty much. which i have stumbled upon. I asked for a sign and this was
what i got, i couldn't have begged the lord for more. Thank you brother,
but there is still so much to be done. If i could help in any way, please
let me know. It would be an honor. sincerely the
resurrection of Christ embodied in
I also want to send my
modest tithe to you for being such a wonderful vessel for my growth of
late. I think I have read perhaps half of your writings (at least those on
your website) and the more I read, the more I am certain you have the
greatest, most profound, yet the most practical spiritual knowledge
around. It is beautiful and clean. Your heart is very pure. I have done
lots of searching on the web, in bookstores, in churches, everywhere, for
people like you, and you are in a class ahead.
Beloved, BELOVED Ahyh,
What you say on your website is
so astoundingly Real. So completely nakedly honest. So above and below,
unified. Thank you and Thank YHWH for you (yes I
know that is redundant). It is simply breathtaking to me that I found your
website now, after so many Googles should have revealed your site to me long
before NOW!! I have spent a good bit of time reading your articles this
week. I've laughed, I've cried, and my, oh, my, I've gotten the tingling
rush. Several times. Thanks!
You asked some questions in "Connections"
that I would like to answer.
>>Even if I told you I had
witnessed the Tree of Life unfold from the Infinite Time when it, too, was a
seed, would that help?
It would help me to feel more
sane about what I witness! And I would love to hear about
it, to expand my own visionary experience.
>>Would it matter?
Yes. Yes. What you have
witnessed is a process of creation that I wanna know about!
>>Why would you believe me?
To feel as if I were not quite
so alone here with the sleepers! Because I can feel the truth of your
>> And if I did, what would that
belief do for you?
That belief would expand my
>>Should I try to describe the
waves of cascading bliss that rolls up and down my spine, at times of
Oh please, please do go on; it's
so evocative. I'll describe mine if you describe yours!
>>Without words that point to a
mutual experience, we cannot even communicate.
We most certainly have a mutual
>>...if nothing else, they [the
visions] are mine, I cannot implant them into you, and thus they must remain
private and off the table of our discussions.
And here is where my
ideas digress from your thought. Visions must remain private, or just your
visions? I would absolutely love to know your visions. I am a visionary;
there, I'll admit it, a Bible belt Tennessean/Unity/Charismatic/Hindu/Jesus
freak woman visionary. I feel like I'm standing up in an AA meeting! Three
people of late have said I'm a mystic. I am devoted to knowing all of the
All, in every delicious and outrageous way everything can be known. I am
sharing my visions, my revelatory visions, in my book "I Am Liberty," and
shit yeah, I get the idea that I will be changing my name at some point as
well. My name is now Libby but the Yhwh of my
being calls me Liberty.
But as to the idea that visions
cannot be implanted in another, well, yes, from the perspective of the
visionary they cannot be implanted. But they can be accessed and
integrated; where would we be without Ezekiel? John the Beloved? The
purpose in sharing mine is described in "A Course in Miracles" like this:
The miracle [revelation] minimizes the need for time. The miracle entails a
sudden shift from horizontal to vertical perception. There is no
relationship between the time a miracle takes and the time it covers. The
miracle shortens time by collapsing it. The miracle worker, therefore,
accepts the time-control factor gladly. He recognizes that every collapse
of time brings everyone closer to the ultimate release from time, in which
the Son and Father are one."
I will be reading more of
the great stuff on your site. Mine is
if you want to visit and read a little of my work. I've attached a couple
of chapters that I get the idea you will enjoy.
Please also send the
instructions for making a donation. I honor your integrity.
Thank you so very much for what
you do with who you are.
I used to write you several
years ago and thought that I would say hi. My name is Ross and you helped me
on my path to righteousness through our Lord Jesus Christ. I used to only
read and learn off of your website, but then I learned that I need to do
some more exploring of God's word and experience some of it.
I found your website by typing
in "what is God's real name?" on the yahoo search engine and came across
your site. You made things really simple and clear that are kinda hard to
understand and complicated. I read alot of your complaints and I used to get
mad also and leave your website after reading just a couple things. But,
then I would feel like I judged you wrong and I would go back and read the
rest of what I did not read. I think people might get upset at you because
you are blunt sometimes and say things that people do not really understand.
You point out alot of things
that people need to remember. I agree that TV is bad. Not all of it, but 95%
of it. You are a very smart man and I want to thank you for still being here
doing God's work. I am now going to do a 9-month bible school to get me
ready to do an internship for full-time ministry if that is what God wants
me to do. I think God wants me to do some mission work also. I guess I will
find out. The Lord is awesome! He works in ways that are so mysterious.
I just wanted to say thank you
for everything, you have taught me alot and I am truly grateful for you and
your website. May God Bless you in every area of your life. You have really
helped me out with your website. Keep up the good work.
THIS SITE!!!!!! I am by profession
a licensed massage therapist who was Scripturally trained by Jehovahís
Witnesses. Disillusioned. But
thankful for valuable Bible knowledge. One
day as I was finishing up a treatment the thought occurred to me that I might
find an interesting site using the Divine YHWH, and voila there you were! Divine
providence at work. I have since
sent it to my poor ole born again brother hoping it will help him find some
balance. I love your humor and good
sense, Iíve omitted the word common for obvious reasons.
I would love to hear from you 1 on 1 if at all possible, I know youíre
a busy guy. Just want to share one
thing for now. Since I have learned
to put my affairs in YHWHís hands my life is a breeze. Chanting THE name is a
common ritual while driving, it really works! I find myself singing it to
various off-key tunes and some that are even right on-key as well.
I do love my maker and his creation and one of the things I hope I will
see in my lifetime is the fulfillment of Rev 18:11.
May YHWH continue to bless and keep you on the web.
let me apologize up front if this message is less than coherent, but my mind had
been racing since I found your page a week ago, but I didnít want to put off
writing any longer.
been studying religion, mysticism, the occult, and the Kabbalah (my personal
spelling choice which I can explain latter) for most of my life, and your page
STILL blew my mind. Some of the
thoughts expressed on it are things Iíve been telling people for years, but
taken to a deeper level of understanding than I have ever achieved.
was, and am, smitten with the complete logic and reason your page displays, and
how well each idea follows from the previous one.
Iíve seen some, though surely not all, of your ideas expressed
elsewhere, but never so concisely and completely.
ideas have given me so many new ways of looking at things, that I donít know
where to start.
Thank you for the most profound contribution to the Web I have ever
I was so thrilled and hugely surprised at the contents of this site. I looked at
other components of it, to try to get a better handle about what this site was
about, and get the impression that perhaps you are someone who has been
inundated in the past with religious dogma that confuses the true meaning of God
and the relationship people can have with God. Anyway, I just wanted you to know
that it is good to see other people who are willing to take the chance on behalf
of God and spread the truth about things that God has given us that we are told
are pagan and really arenít.
you have time, email me sometime. Iíd love to know how you arrived at this
I just finished Stations of the Cross and I just wanted to say THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN!!!! I was truly blessed by your willingness to share
God's wisdom with others as myself. I learned many things that I either overlooked or had taken much for granted. My favorite Stations were
The Call to Obedience, The
Euongaleon, and The Koan. The fact that we cannot
fully understand YHWH, we must experience Him says it all. HalleluYah the War is Over!!!!
Now, if I can only accomplish the death of my will so that it becomes His will living through me, the Joy and Peace that passes all understanding
will finally be upon me.
I Thank YHWH for YOU and YOUR willingness to share!!!
[Yet there are always questions...questions & more questions...Our
work is never done!]
I just finished the Revealing Science of God and it is hard for me to
visualize HOW you were brilliant enough to put this all together. This truly blows my mind because it is so perfect!!! The "Why" really got me
because I have always questioned "Why" but quickly moved away from the question because some of the potential answers were less than honorable to
YHWH. Only a sick person would create someone just to worship himself and that is not the God I seek to serve.
Was all this revealed to you by YHWH through meditation on His Name?
Is the Revealing Science of God merely this document, or is it an evolving/growing body of knowledge that you will someday publish?
If this web site blew up tomorrow, how could I continue to explore this body of knowledge? Do you have a publication I can buy with this
information on hard copy?
[Others have their own profound insights to share.]
Greetings in the Name Of God :-)
I was inspired by your site to share a little revelation with you. As with all opinions, you may do with it as you see fit.
While meditating on the NAME of GOD I began becoming aware of
my breathing... how the cycles of inward and outward breaths is the only thing standing between life and death... for each
one of us. How truly personal and intimate our breath is to us and how GOD is the giver of each life-giving breath... So
what does this have to do with the NAME OF GOD? I asked myself.
Then, as I continued observing each breath, I began to notice the sound each was making through my nose, mouth and lungs:
Each inward breath made the sound; YH...
Each outward breath made the sound; WH...
YH... in breath...WH...out breath...YH...WH...YH...WH...
Then it hit me: YHWH... the NAME OF GOD!
Now, I remembered the scriptures telling us that GOD'S NAME IS HOLY... the old traditions forbidding us to even speak it...
lest we pronounce it incorrectly. But here I was... Not speaking... But BREATHING it... continually...(and perfect
pronunciation every time)!
Perhaps in His Wisdom, HE set things up this way in order to preserve the Holiness of His Name... For me, it has become
a constant and continual reminder of not only how close he is at all times, but how much HE cares for me... for ALL of us...
throughout each breath of our lives.
As My meditation drew to a close, I remembered a scripture: 'Let everything that has breath praise the LORD...' Suddenly
I realized: EVERYTHING THAT BREATHES... Does praise Him...CONSTANTLY!
If you would like to reply, or share this with others I would be honored.
Thank you for taking the time to read my little note.
Yours in HIS LOVE.
[Others are not quite so impressed.]
No one with any intelligence believes this religious drivel.
Your piece about Jesus being a loser and
a coward is so stupid and totally false I wonder how you'll feel when
God throws your sorry ass into hell. But of course, your father the devil,
has you believing hell and your own evil don't exist.
By the way, you probably have other people doing your fighting for you. I
also bet you don't work for a living, but live off of others people's
money. Whoops, that makes you a coward and a loser.
[But for the most part we seem to be making a difference.]
Whoa! I was so thrilled and hugely surprised at the contents of this site. I looked at other components of it, to try to get a better handle
about what this site was about, and get the impression that perhaps you are someone who has been inundated in the past with religious dogma that
confuses the true meaning of God and the relationship people can have with God. Anyway, I just wanted you to know that it is good to see other
people who are willing to take the chance on behalf of God and spread the truth about things that God has given us that we are told are pagan
and really aren't.
[It's particularly wonderful when someone shares how God has been
transforming their lives...Though the journey is seldom without bumps.]
...Like I said before, I am still slowly but surely studying the sight and am getting more and more excited
when I read on. I would like to share what I have been experiencing lately since practicing meditating and
chanting YHVH, then get your opinion of what is happening.
I started just in small increments, repeating the name YHVH over and over, when I have time. It gives me
amazing peace. Anyways, out of nowhere, I have been getting I guess what is called " Panic Syndrome ". I
will be at work or at home or at the store, and then out of nowhere, feel an overwhelming sense of doom. I feel
like something traumatic is going to happen to me health wise. I don't know if it stems from the fact that
there is history of heart disease in my family or whatever but it is a horrible experience
when it happens. It as been effecting my work and home life in small but effective ways. A couple of times, it subsided
quickly when I repeated YHVH over and over, but I have to admit I don't remember to do it
every time. All that goes through my head is "where's the nearest hospital" or "I need
aspirin, thins the blood". It sounds stupid I know, but I feel sometimes like I'm losing my mind. You
might be asking, "what does this have to do w/ anything?" Well, this seemed to all start
happening when I became massively involved w/ my quest for the truth. Is this spiritual, or am I
over-spiritualizing the situation? Is it co-incidental or a spiritual event. And if so, how do
I fight this? Just would like to know you opinion...
Also one last thing before I go...
I have a few gay friends that say they want to serve God, but feel that they are completely normal and God
made them this way. This is hard for me because I have never been able to say to people that what they feel is
wrong because I don't know what it is they feel. That is why for years, I have been neutral, I take no stand.
What is your take on this and what is the best approach on this??
That's it for now...
[And some take the time to send a detailed, line-by-line commentary
detailing my errors...At least they're praying for me!]
Subject: doctrine in "In The
Date: Sat, 23 Oct 1999 01:49:18 +1000
Dear brother Ahyh (and I do call you brother, because you believe in Yeshua/Yehoshua/Jesus/Iesous -whatever his glorious name is, the
However, as you desire my comments, I will give you them. Your doctrine is nice, but I think it comes more from human thinking than Yahweh's
holy word and the words of Jesus. Also, I don't think emotions, inner peace, etc. really testifies that all of what you believe is true.
Buddha, supposedly (and I do mean 'sadly'), reckoned himself to have achieved ultimate peace, but his doctrine doesn't seem to fit very well
with that of the God of Israel. I'll go through your chapter 11 and comment ONLY on that which I believe Scripture has disagreement with.
So although this may seem like a whole heap of criticism, I aim to encourage you to examine the Scriptures yourself with an open heart and
find out what exactly God's word says -and if it disagrees with the revelations you have received, perhaps you need to question where they
came from. Just because I call out to "Ahyh" doesn't mean that it is you who will answer me -even if I do have the right pronunciation. If I
called it out 1000 times in the morning in a chant, would that help me filter out your voice from Southern California from all the Australians
here where I live? "Satan himself masquerades as an angel of light." (2 Corinthians 11:14) I propose that it is important to compare all
revelations with the Scripture, to see if they really are from God.
Ok... chapter 11.
3. Yep! But that doesn't mean that he doesn't hate too: "I have loved Jacob, but Esau I have hated." (Malachi 1:2-3) And God is a warrior
(Exodus 15:3). In fact the Shaddai in El Shaddai (God Almighty) actually comes from Shadad, meaning 'to devastate, destroy, ravage,
ruin'. Obviously "God is love" does not seem to allow for all this to the Western-thinking unbeliever, so although you may perfectly
understand that God can be love and yet hate and destroy and kill, your average reader is likely to misunderstand you.
4. I guess so!
5. Yep, the word there means "commanded" or "ordered", but I guess it is fair to say that it was also a warning, because had Adam fully
understood the consequences, he would not have preferred to eat of it. But IF you understand the command only to be a warning to Adam and no
more, one might wonder why God created the Tree in the first place -and then why He didn't protect Adam from the serpent/tree/situation
7. hmm... I don't find the Scripture references for what you are saying. Many people suppose different things about what the effect of
the partaking was. It is true that Adam and Eve realized they were naked and saw this as evil, however it is not right to say that all
creation is good. The serpent, for a start, was not very 'good'. The guardian cherub that God created (and most see as a pre-Adam form of
Satan) was perfect until wickedness was found in him (Ezekiel 28:11-19). Wickedness is not good. Jesus clearly refers to man as
being wicked -think of how many times he says 'wicked and adulterous generation!'. And he called them evil: "If you, then, though you are
evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!" (Matthew
7:11) Jesus' words, God's words and the words of the apostles clearly depict that man (whom God created) has become evil; read the first few
chapters of Romans for examples. Brother, I understand your experience from people wanting you just to think like them and repeat parrot
fashion what they teach you, but I encourage you to read the Scriptures yourself. Jesus said "Sanctify them by the truth, Your [Father's] word
is truth" (John 17:17)
9. umm... actually yes, all sin and evil will die -but that doesn't mean cease to exist. Some will go into eternal torment. "He will
punish those who do not know God and do not obey the gospel of our Lord Jesus. They will be punished with everlasting destruction and shut out
from the presence of the Lord..." (2 Thessalonians 1:8-8) See also Mt 18:8, 25:41,46, Jude 7, Gal 1:8-9, Is 33:14, Jer 23:40, 25:9, Dan 12:2,
Rev 21:8, 20:10...
10. - 11. hmm...
12. - 13. Actually, (I know this is a little picky, but) God, being the Beginning and the End, would already have know about the fall of
man, before it occurred. Hence His plan was already devised. Hence "the Lamb that was slain from the creation of the world." (Revelation 13:8)
14. Amen, brother! Whatever the problem is, Jesus is the solution. Unless the problem is "what is 2+2?"
16. Imagine the humiliation he went through for us. And he left his glorious home with the Father to die for us and so redeem us. There is
no greater love than this -but you know all this, so moving along...
17. Too true, too true!
18. Became perfect? Jesus needed to be perfect already to be a 'lamb without spot or blemish', able to be sacrificed for our sins.
19. Yep, he took our sin upon himself.
20. Umm... only that the Bible clearly says: "But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him,
and by his wounds we are healed." (Isaiah 53:5) So, somebody was being punished and that somebody was Jesus -but not for his own sin of
course (because he had none), but ours.
22. Too right he was, HalleluYah!
24. Well, actually, God's hand is not the only active one. The hand of "the god of this age" (2 Corinthians 4:4) is also active -and
increasingly so as his doom approaches (also my hand is active as I am typing to you!) but this doesn't mean in any way that God doesn't have
power or sovereignty over what the devil does or what I or you do. "God works all things for the good of those who love him and are called
according to his purposes." (Romans 8:28)
25. I tend to like the idea of not seeing ourselves as ('hopeless') sinners, but we must heed God's warning through the apostle John: "If
we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us
our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. If we claim we have not sinned, we make him out to be a liar and his word has no place in
our lives." (1 John 1:8-10) About this stage brother, perhaps you need to die to ego and self and accept what God is showing you.
26. - 27. Yep, that's all fine.
28. Oops! Brother, you can't just say whatever you believe is 'truly the Gospel'. What you have presented differs quite significantly from
the true Gospel that is found in the Bible. And you are really walking on thin ice to claim before God that what you are saying is truly the
Brother, in love I advise you to renew your mind according to what God has revealed by His words, rather than listening to whatever your
suggests to you. But if you do not care about Scripture, join the rest of the mystics of the world each having their own beliefs -be original,
different, select bits from here and bits from there and make your own religion- but if you do this then don't come back and tell others that
they need to die to themselves. In all of our lives God must increase and we must decrease, and part of this is surrendering to the truth
which God has revealed through His chosen Prophets and Apostles. What makes you so sure that your beliefs are from God? The God I know
doesn't seem to agree with you! And no, I don't worship the Bible; I worship God who reveals himself most clearly through the Bible. I've
had spiritual experiences that testify to the Bible, but I've had ones that I know were not from God, because they contradict what He has
If it were not for the Bible, you would not know about Jesus, so what exactly do you believe is a worthy witness? And if you believe that all
truth should be revealed only by the Holy Spirit/spiritual experience, why then go and tell others what is 'truly the Gospel'?
I'm praying for you, Ahyh.
Love from -----------